Sunday, December 04, 2005

Luke 1:46

Its amazing how the women who gave birth to Christ was so humble. She knew that people wouldnt believe that she was a virgin, she knew people would look down on her because she wasnt married. But still she says "Praise the Lord" She never made it about her. It was always about God. Thats how we should be when the Lord uses us for his glory. Even if it means people will look at us like me are crazy.
Below is what mary said when she found out she was going to give birth to Jesus


"My soul glorifies the Lord
and my spirit rejoices in God my Savior.
For he has been mindful
of the humble state of his servant.
From now on all generations will call
me blessed
For the mighty one has done great things for me.
holy is his name!
His mercy extends to those who fear him.
From generation to generaton
He has performed mighty deeds with his arm.
He has scattered those who are proud in their inmost thoughts.
He has brought down rulers from their thrones
but has lifted up the humble
he has filled the hungry with good things
but has sent the rich away empty
he has helped his servant israel remembering
to be merciful to Abraham and his descendants forever
even as he said to our fathers."

Monday, October 31, 2005

SCARY!

hey all. So I got a funny phone call from alyssa yesterday....

alyssa: "hey ashley"
me: "hey alyssa"
alyssa: "so here is the plan...We are all gonna dress up, get candy and then have a party at your house and watch scary movies!"
me: "ok"
alyssa: "ok, see you then"

so...its not very funny typed out...but it was very funny on the phone. So i guess everyone is coming over to my house tonight? fun fun fun! im excited!

So my doctor told me that im not going to be able to have kids. I wanted to die. I was so upset you dont even know! I lost sleep over it, I made myself sick over it, I think I cried for like 2 days....Then the nurse calls me and says they made a mistake and everything is fine with me! ahhhhh...Yea, its good news and im soooo happy, but do they even realize how much sadness and pain they put me through!? I think doctors should keep thier mouths shut before they get test results..then drop the bomb after they know what is really wrong and not put people through all of that emotional crap.....anyway, all is good though. im fine..i can have kids..woot woot. love you all. see you later.

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

Hi

Stephanie got a job with me at Carrows. She is taking over my hostess job. So yeah Thats coool. I have to train her ...So im a server now, You should all come in and sit in my section. it will be fun!

So I went to the Doctor yesterday. I wont get into details...but it was sad...Buts all good. no worries.

well I have to go to work now. I will update more later. byebye!

ashley

Monday, October 03, 2005

maid of honor

So today tanya and I went to pick up whitney ( my maid of honor) at the airport. I was very happy to see her. she hasnt changed a bit..but the bad thing is..I have...or is that a good thing? well..yeah..it was wierd at first...i mean, I havnt seen the girl in six years...I was pretty upset. it wasnt like i expected...but good news. throughout the day we got a lot more used to the fact that we are actually talking in person..and hanging out in person and not just on the phone..so after the car ride, we had a lot of fun. we went to a bbq and then hung out at my moms house. we had great conversation and there was a lot of laughing about the old times. she finally started to get excited about being here...not that she wasnt..it was just wierd..we have a lot of fun plans. the poor thing hasnt been to the beach in like 7 years! so thats a plan. its gonna be great fun. then there is santa barbara, pismo, and a whole bunch of stuff i gotta fit in before the wedding..im excited.




ALL IN ALL...im glad my best friend is here. ive needed her for a long time..so its gonna be good for me. she has already helped me feel better about some things ...and she has only been here for a couple hours! this girl was my only friend when i was younger. and she probably knows more about me then most. im glad she is here to remind me of the person that i really am..thats always a good thing. ;0)

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

THERES A MOUSE IN MY ROOM!

OMG...A MOUSE JUST RAN OVER MY FOOT!



So im sitting here in my moms house, just minding my own business. When a huge freaking mouse crawls over my foot.. Sick...at first I didnt think anything of it.(because I didnt know it was there) Then it made a noise!!!! ahhhhhhhhh. I freaked. I Jumped up on the little coffee table thing, lost my balance and fell on the floor. meanwhile the stupid little mouse is just staring at me...with its beady little eyes. I was so afraid to move. I just sat there. I will have you know that I won the staring contest because about 20 seconds of no movement what so ever , the sneaky little mouse ran right past me..teasing me in its little mouse way..ug. where is ran off to...no one knows. im sure its hiding under my blanket so it can torment me some more when I go to bed. or maybe its off talking to its friends telling them how i lost my balance and fell of the table. Have a good laugh little mouse. Because its going to be your last. you heard me. be afraid. be very very afraid.

Thursday, September 22, 2005

Hello

Ive been thinking...maybe a little to much. You know how people always joke and say "dont think to much, you might hurt yourself" and everyone laughs ..Well this time I think it is true. I think that I have been thinking so much today, that I have actually hurt myself. no. Not physically. But the emotional part isnt doing so well. Dont worry. Its not Jason. He has been so awesome. Everything is great and I am so happy to be with him. I just keep hearing really sad things from people that I really care about. Stuff about Jason and I .. Sometimes I wish I could be like the random girl, sitting in the back of the church, the one that no one really knows anything about. That way no one will care if im getting married, or what my relationship is like with my fiance, or if im ready to get married or not.. BUT...Im not that girl. Everyone has an opinion, and I guess I cant get away from that. But I just want to know, What is so wrong with me that people think im going to be a failure as a wife?? what did I do that was so wrong? Are people still judging me from my past? Do they not realize im not the same person.? what do I need to do to change peoples opinions? ....Are these peoples opinions even worth worring about. ? God knows my heart, he knows my faults, he knows if im going to be a good wife. As long as I do everything to glorify him, and always love him over everything, I believe he will bless me. And my marriage. maybe I should just worry about that instead of everyone else.


I think I should just go to bed. Tomorrow is another day, maybe I will feel better. Someone please call me. give me uplifting words. anything..I dont care. I love you all. goodnight.


PS. PARKER!!!!! I decided to make my post totally awesome by adding you to it! how is everything? things arent as bad with me as they sound. just some thoughts I wanted to post. talk to you later dude!

Friday, September 16, 2005

thursday

Tonight was goodtimes. I though the lesson was pretty good. I thought the atmosphere was good. Did I spell that right? oh well. I had a good time. a part of me is happy that the group has moved back to Jims house. I feel closer to everyone..not that the house is small..but like...we could be more personal there.

Survivor was awesome..im excited .. I LOVE LUPE!
Im glad I finally saw the first episode..to tell you the truth, I dont think I have ever seen a first episode in all of survivor. ! crazy man. let me tell you. I think it is to early to decide on who I want to win, or what team I like better. But i will tell you this..I would love it if stephanie won. i think she is wonderful.

I had fun at the shaw house tonight. to be honest, I finally felt like part of the group, like everyone was my friend.....like I was in on it...I dont know what "it" was..but I felt included. so its all good. I hope that is stays that way to. I really love you all!
Speaking of LOVE....ahhahahahah . I will say no more!

well im to tired to finish this post..gotta go.

Monday, September 12, 2005

BAH

HOLA, Today was a pretty good day. except that my phone was dead all day long and i felt incomplete. But I did have 7 unheard messages which made me feel dandy. (expect they were all from my family! blah)

Good news, my aunt chris is having a boy...and now my aunt Debbie is having a baby!! yayayaya. So im very very happy.

Tonight I went to Jays aunts house. Alot of his family was there, so it was cool. Im glad that I am getting to know them all better. Anyway, they got jay and I a new microwave..woop woop. Its totally awesome and totally needed . we are totally blessed. Everything we need, like a lawn mower, a fridge, a washer and dryer, stuff like that has been provided for us! praise God! He always makes it happen, which is totally awesome. he is totally awesome.

I HAVE A NEW FRIEND!!!!!! Im sooooo happy. I met her at work. her name is mellisa.... We get a long great and she is going through a lot of stuff that I have been through, so I can relate to her a lot. And I can give her good advice to ( or what I think is good advice ;).....) The best thing about her is that she likes me even though I am nerdy and the girl calls me. which is good on my list. I am blessed again because I have been praying and praying that God would send me a good friend, one that will call me and hang out with me, even though I am getting married. And he did. The best part is that she has so much potential to be come to the Lord. I know that sounds dumb....because we should try and bring everyone to the Lord...but she is so almost there. I think that she grew up in a strick baptist home and it pushed her away from religion and God. So yeah, I think Im gonna try and get her to go to church with me and stuff. that will be cool.
The other night she hung out with me at mike shaws house. It was good times...kind of....until mikey told me to get out of his house...ouch! lol oh well, what can ya do......but thanks for letting us hang out for night..that was considerate of you. jk...but really thank you

BIG BROTHER WAS AWESOME!
I dont care if they "waste my time" on an episode that doesnt mean anything. it is still funny! GO JANIE!

I think this is the biggest blog I have written yet..woop woop.

TANYA AND ALYSSA!
Sorry I coulnt go shoe shoppin...I really wanted to go and I was all ready to go..then caitlins mom called and wanted me to come over and get the dress fitted...blah...but you should go with me to find my shoes..So what do they look like? are they cute? do you like pancakes?

wow I just got hyper..

So .....answer me this....when you go to read someones blog and it is really really long, do you feel overwhelmed and just give up on it completely? I would...lol...congrats if you have made it this far!

PARKER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Do you have a blog? I do....ummm

So yeah..tomorrow Im gonna go to the gym with my new friend MEl...and Im gonna get HOT LIKE SHAKIRA!!!!! YIPPY YIPPY!!!
Is shakira hot? I think she sounds like a frog...RIBBIT...RIBBIT

Then on Tuesday Im gonna go to the track with Tracy Starns and get hot like .....ummmm OPRAH!!! Thats right. you heard me..oprah

speaking of oprah, I wrote her a letter telling her that Im a poor white girl, living in a black neighborhood...Do you think she will send me money for my wedding? dude...If I was Oprah, I would give me like, 100,000. $$$$ for my wedding. Just because....LONG LIVE DR. PHIL.

Saturday, September 10, 2005

thats to bad

". Some friends are like going to a Quidditch Match. You know its never really going to happen. They are a nice theory, but in reality they’re not going to fly, they’re not going to catch the Snitch, and you’re not going to watch anything other than them suiting up to go onto the pitch. "

Friday, September 09, 2005

you know what. i think i changed my mind. I think its time i just give up on you guys. Whats the point.?

OH GOODNESS!

wow guys...30 days until i am married. thats flippin crazy.


i want you all to read this and take this in to consideration k..... CALLLLL MEEEEE. lets hang out..lets do fun stuff...lets go on a car ride, go to the beach, wash our cars together, skip in a field of flowers....i dunno. anything! I just want to do something to help me with the stress. It will be fun ..i promise. . . . . .

now i have to tell everyone what i think of them..ready!

Tanya- I think that we need to start our relationship over. I think we need to just hang out. love eachother, and have fun like we used to. we are family, and how awesome that I have the chance to have a cousin that is my best friend. im sorry for being a punk. I think that we are both trying to find who we are...and in the process of doing so...we just lost it.I love you though. more then you think, and more then you know...I just put on a front...im sorry


2. the shaw- What can I say. I enjoy your company. sometimes im just sitting around all bored and im like..."what m. shaw up to?" and sometimes im crazy busy...and im like " hmm...wonder what mike is up to" I love ya man. your just about the funniest person I know.. I hope that we stay friends for a long long time. dont be afraid to call me or hang out with me when i get married ok!

3. Alyssa- DUDE...I just got off the phone with you. I love alyssa! your a blast to hang out with. which is why I wanna hang out more. I think that God is working in your life like crazy right now...and I see the changes he has made in you. I think that he is going to use you in ways you wouldnt have even thought. I pray for you a lot because I know the pain that you have right now with things you are going through. I love you though. I want to be here for you and be a better friends. I am really trying right now .I hope that is shows a little. but i will try harder so it shows alot.

4. Parker- DONT BE AFRAID OF ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! dude...this is what I know about you, your name is parker, your quiet, sometimes you spike your hair, you mow lawns, you hate mine, and your not going to my wedding!!!!!!!! I realize i know nothing about you! and that needs to change..i think you and I need to just sit down and have a good conversation..sound good! dont be scared !!!

5. Jenn- I miss you......I didnt think you and I would be friends..not with the whole jason thing...lol good times. but i love you! how could i not. I wish you were here right now. I think you and I could be awesome friends. we have a lot in common and you bring out the goofy side in me. and you always make me laugh! call me k...

6. myself- you could be a good person if you would bring down the walls.... take away the barriers and quit being so afraid. open up to people and dont be ashamed of who you are. . just be yourself..be nice...dont be fake...dont judge...dont complain..dont hide...dont worry about what others think. Love the Lord with all you have and make it so the world can see that. ......with that said....I know, I have potential to love you.

Saturday, August 27, 2005

woop

41 days left until im married!!!! thats flippin crazy!

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

hmmm..should I?

I wonder if should post feelings on a blog. oh well im going to anyway.


So I call people...And the conversations usually go like this

ME: Hey whats up?
other person: nothing really..
ME: cool what are your plans tonight? is everyone haning out?
other person: I dont know yet, But i will call you.

blah blah blah....
Do I ever get a phone call? noooooooooooo. Do my friends hang out that night? yes. Do people have parties and go to parties and not tell me..? yes.

So I wonder, is this how it is when someone is getting married? everyone forgets about them? or maybe everyone just wants the single people to hang out? whats the deal? im soooo tired of sitting at home and wondering what everyone is doing. and not getting invited to things. Yes I have a life...and right now that consists of my job, God, and jason...notice how I dont have friends on that list, thats because no one calls me. because they asume that i dont want to because my world revolves around jason. what if that is wrong? what if I want to be in a bible study? or go to a party, or just hang out.? .......ahhhhhh.

I love you all..i really do. and im not trying to make everyone feel bad. I promise..I just want you to know that I do want to be involved with these things, I want friends, I want people to call me and just see how everything is going. and if you are thinking "why doesnt she ever call us?" its because im tired of hearing "I will call you when i find out what everyone is doing tonight" and then not getting a call. thats all..im done and i feel better. just some silly dramatic stuff thats been on my mind.

Sunday, July 03, 2005

I SAW TANI IN HER CAR

So yeah, Here is my blog...


I started this new nanny job as some of you know. I love it!!! Although I am pretty much a full time mother. It is pretty hard. I have never been so tired with a job in my life!! My day starts off at like 8 am. I make them breakfast, do the dishes when they are done and clean up the mess. Get them in the bath, then dressed. Have them watch a movie or play, Clean....make lunch, clean.....intertain them with the park or the thrift store. They love the dollar store..then I clean after that make dinner...clean ....its hard work!! but they are good kids and I love them already. My car is so cute, I have two car seats in the back covered with crackers. lol its pretty funny.

So what else is new in my life? nothing really exciting except for my new blonde hair. yup, Im going back blonde. I cant do it...I cant get married with brown hair, its just not me...well, this is about the most boring blog Ive ever written in my life..

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

MY PANTS ARENT DRY

So I just sat here and wrote a huge post...oh yeah...huge...then tanyas stupid computer erased it all...ahhhhhhhhh. It was so heartfelt and emotional...and now its all gone. and I dont feel like writing it all again..so I will sum it up for you.

1. ATTENTION ALL RENTERS, STARTING JUNE 2ND I WILL BE HOMELESS. SO IF YOU KNOW ANYONE THAT IS RENTING OUT A ROOM OR IF YOU ARE RENTING OUT A ROOM, LET ME KNOW..THANKYOU!!!!

2. I just talked about how I regret having a bad additude during awana...I want to do it again so I can be a great leader to the girls. I want to be someone they remember when they grow up and if they dont remember me, at least to remember what I taught them about Jesus.

3. My pants are not dry...and I was supposed to be at awana awards like and hour ago..just my luck..so yeah now im sitting here waiting..

4. I need to make a change. I need to read my bible...I need to pray more and I need to be a better leader in Christ to the kids inside and outside of church.

5. MIKE SHAW IS OUT TO KILL ME!!!!!!!!!!!! JK But he had a really funny mix up in words and said something about him being glad I am dead or something. lol pretty funny.

6. I have a cramp in my toe

7. blah...byebye!!!!!

Saturday, May 07, 2005

Leeches!!!!!

EWWWWWWW. I would not eat a leech. People on fear factor are crazy...ahhhhh


So yeah, I miss you Jen....WHERE ARE YOU...
So Im sorry that I havnt been updating...Today Jason and I got a lot done today, I think he spent like 400$ on wedding stuff....but its a good thing. Its great to get things done...although there is still a lot more to get done.

People keep telling me to do what I want and not what others want me to do....ummm well I like the ideas that people are telling...so i will probably do them. so yeah. Im pretty sure that the colors are pink and brown. yay.....

so I was gonna update a bunch and make this really interesting...but uhh. im boring. so yeah, im gonna go...maybe i will update tomorrow..byebye

Tyler

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