one day at a time.

I just thought I would share that Tyler had rice cereal for the first time. It was hilarious. I have a video and I will post it when Tanya sends it to me. Poor guy, he hated it!!

So the 27th was Jasons 24th birthday. what an old man! ;0) I spent the day looking for running shoes, size 14. I went to 6 different places! Poor Tyler was not very happy about that. Anyway, that's what he wanted. He has been running almost everyday in his regular shoes and I cant imagine that being very comfortable. I'm really proud of him though. last time he checked he lost 17 lbs. so he is doing good. Why do men lose weight so fast? I work my butt of and only lose a couple pounds. Oh well, slow but surely I guess.

So there are some new life changes going on right now. It was really hard in the beginning and there was a lot of drama about it. I'm sure people got hurt by it because I know it hurts me.. But its getting easier. I've prayed a ton about it and I really feel like its where God is leading me. So I know its the right thing. So there is a Jeremy Camp song that really means a lot to me. I could take it verse by verse and relate it to my life right now. So you can read it or not. its up to you. Its in color. so Just pass it by if you don't want to read it.

One day at a time I will walk this road I've traveled so far

One day at a time well I know I will carry on

One day at a time I can see you took my life this far

One day at a time I will take this faith along

All this hope I breathe is given by the hand that carries meUntil I'm complete

and I'll take all I will To understand this plan you have for me, for me

I've been shut up shut down held out held down

In ways I never knew I would But I can feel your fullness in my life

Well I've been burned out broken torn out torn down

In ways I never knew I would

But I can feel your fullness in my life

one day at a time

one day at a time

I will take these words you've given me

One day at a time I will rest in knowing you

One day at a time I will share this gift you've given me

One day at a time I will walk these valleys through

And all I know is that I see

How much my heart is longing to be cradled by your side

Yeah, I'll give all I can

To one day soon be held by your hand, by your hand

In all these things I will press on, yeah

I'll be with you I know it won't be long

so you can see where what im getting right? Things change in life all the time. Its easier for some people, and for others its heart wrenching. I just happen to be the second person. Change is not easy for me. especially when it means losing people who mean the world to me. But just like the song says. " one day at a time, I will rest in knowing you" That's the great thing about God. He will ALWAYS be there. and I have complete faith in that. And its true. I will Take all he has to give me until I understand the plan he has for me. Only because I know its way better then mine. Even if I never understand it, I know its better. Anyway, I feel good about life right now. And let me tell you, that is a great feeling. There are some things that still need to be dealt with, but I know that God will give me the right words to speak and understanding to handle these situations. At least I pray that he will.

On to the weight loss. Ive lost a total of 25 lbs. Tan, my sisters and I have been going to the gym a lot lately. Its been nice. I cant wait until Tyler is 5-6 months, then I can take him to the day care there and work out. Then I will try to go about 6 times a week. So there ya go. That's about it on that. I will keep ya updated though.

shout outs!

Tanyanator- thank you for being my amazing best friend. I know you will always be here for me, just like I will ALWAYS be here for you. Thank you for being here for me in this weird time. I love you!

Mr. Shaw- Thank you for your funny blogs. they bring humor to my life. now update it! oh yeah, any news on the treadmill? Tell your dad I will give him money for it if he wants to get rid of it.

Jenn- It was great having frozen yogurt with you other day! Don't worry about being a cat lady. Cats can be pretty amazing. Oh yeah, Ive been praying for your medical stuff. I hope everything is alright!

Crisha- Congrats on winning your "case" lol. remind me not to mess with you ;0) anyway, I love you and thank you for being a great friend to me. lets hang out soon!

MANDI!!- Im so glad we are talking again! its been way to long. Cant wait to see you when you get in to town. I miss you!

Steph- Im glad you are back and away from crazy people. You dont fit in there. Thank you for being my work out buddy and letting me coach softball with you. I love you sister!

sorry if you didnt get a shout out. Im tired and I could go on forever!! I love you though. Here are some random pictures. enjoy!

This is the softball team that My sister stephanie and I are coaching. Its so much fun and the girls are great. We have our first game of the season tomorrow at 8am. wish us luck!!

steph and Tyler. I love this picture.

My beautiful sisters. sorry if ive already put this picture up.

Thats all. sorry if this was to long for ya. trust me, I could write a novel right now. I will just save it for the next post.

My valentine

I had a really good valentines day. My sisters are angels and watched Tyler for us. As much as I love and adore the little guy, Its nice to go out just the two of us. So Jason and I went to SLO and had dinner at firestone grill. It was sooo good! we wanted to walk around farmers market but we took to long at dinner. Thats ok though. we just walked around town and got some ice cream. Then we went to pismo bowl to do some bowling but they closed. So we went to the billiards and played pool. It was really fun. We didnt really spend a lot of money and it was still alot of fun. MR SHAW! I really liked your blog on the 5 love languages. That book is so silly but so amazing at the same time. Jason and I REALLY learned alot from it. We read it before we got married and it changed us so much for the good. So I recommend it to anyone dating, engaged or even married. Once you get passed the silliness its really good.

.............................................................look at the concentration!

.......................................................................I WON!

Well. I just thought that I should update you all on my weight loss. Yesterday I went to Costco and got myself a really nice scale. I say nice only because is showed that I have lost a total of 20 lbs. Thats pretty good for only having a moderate activity level. Im pretty excited though because Jason has decided to join me with the weight loss. He wants to lose 30-40 lbs before kickback. Which is around September. I know he can do it. the Guy can jog everyday for about 4 days and I can tell a difference. why cant women be like that? oh well. Im excited for him. We will both feel so much better after we lose some weight.. So ive decided to start setting goals for myself. I think that will help motivate me to work harder. So this week I want to lose 4 lbs. I think that will be easy. All I have to do is start exercising. So yeah, wish me luck!

Tyler will be getting dedicated on the 24th at church. So for those who want to go that dont already attend Grace let me know..Or just show up. Service is at 9am. Crisha is letting us barrow this amazing little outfit. Its so cute on him. we wanted to do it this sunday, but since there is an abundance of babies in the church they have to split it up between two sundays. Im excited for it though. Having Tyler grow up in a christian home is a big deal to me. I want him to know and have a relationship with God. And I want him to look at Jason and I and know that we are going to Heaven when we pass. I really want to be a good example for him. I think its cool that the church promises to be there as an example for him to. It really does mean a lot to me. So yeah, I would to see you all there if you want to go!

I love him so much! Im blessed with an awesome baby!

This is the face he makes when he is concentrating on something. right now he is looking at my sister phone.

I love having a happy baby. its a lot of fun.

All he wants to do is walk around. Im pretty sure he will be walking early.

Oh yeah, thankyou again for everyone who is keeping me accountable and asking me how I am doing. Its really helping!

here ya go mr. shaw!

Well. Here is my update for anyone who is interested. I have been doing great on my "diet" or should we say, "new life style" It has gotten so much easier to do. I think that my stomach has gotten smaller because im totally used to eating smaller portions. Boo to the rain though. I havnt been able to go on a walk for a while. The day I can go it rains, and the days I cant go its beautiful outside. So that has really slowed down the weight loss. All together I have lost about 17 lbs. (havnt weighed myself in a couple of days though) Im pretty happy about that. I still dont see much of an outward change. But I do feel sooo much better. No more acid reflux, and I believe my blood pressure has gone down a lot. I have more energy and I rarely have that sick feeling..You know, the sluggesh feeling you get when you eat greasy food. ug. Im so excited about this because I really feel like I can stick with it.

You guys are totally going to make fun me. lol, but its ok because im going to make fun of myself. Jason just pointed out that on the ON DEMAND thing on my TV they have TONS of workout programs for free!. I checked it out and its pretty awesome. So yeah. As longs as no one is looking, I will be working out in my living room. That is until I can start going to the gym. So thankyou to everyone who is supporting me and asking me how its going..It really helps guys! thanks again! Here an updated picture. no, its not a full body shot..im not ready for that. But I can tell I have lost some weight in my face.

Tyler is three months! Its amazing how fast they grow and how much they learn in such a short time. Yesterday Tanya was in town. which was awesome. Tyler was fasinated with the button on her shirt and kept staring at it. Then he just reached out and grabbed it. . I know thats not that exciting, but to me it is. that was the first time he has grabbed anything on purpose. so that was cool . I can tell he is focusing a lot more on things. Poor guy has a cold right now. He doesnt pretty good though. he just wants to be held and sleep alot. Which is fine with me. He is such a good baby. Here are some updated pictures.

I do love this smile!

....................................Just relaxing with mom

He found his pointer finger and his thumb this month. Its his new accomplishment and he is very excited about it. ;0)

.....................Brent and Crisha got him this AMAZING outfit. I love it. Its so cute on him.

Speaking of Brent and Crisha. How about their amazing little baby! Ezekiel is so beautiful. He is such a great little baby. Ive had such a great time getting to know crisha and brent better. I mean, Ive been friends with Crish since the sixth grade, but we have so much in common now.Im so excited that Tyler is has a little friend. I cant wait for Ezekiel to get big enough to interact with tyler. I have a lot of fun hanging out with them and their new addition! here are some pictures.

Anyway, thats all for now. I hope everyone has fun watching the game today!! (or should I say have fun watching the commercials!)