Long time...

So yeah. its been awhile. i decided to quit writing blogs on here because Tanya is the only one that reads them. Maybe Jenn sometimes...so here is the deal. Do I waste my time writing these things or do I find out how many people actually read this gosh darn blog...so I need 5 people to tell me they read my blog...or I will call it quits~!!!!! ahahhahahahah. anyway. let the comments begin.

Back to school.

Hey everyone. Good news...I think.

Today I have an appointment with Lisa from Santa Barbara Business College. I Am going to take some classes there and get my future going. Im sure what I want to do though. To be honest, I don't think im smart enough to do a lot of what they have. And no. Dont feel sorry for me for saying that. Im just being honest! I suck at math....English...History...blah...But this is based off of highschool experiences. I have to remember that highschool was drama and I had a lot of distractions..Boys, mean people, early mornings..and the list goes on and on. The lack of motivation is what killed me.. But I think im different now. More grown up and I can handle things now. So maybe I am smart and I just don't know it yet! I guess we will see. So Im pretty sure I will be taking business classes and accounting stuff. I will find out today what I might go for. They dont really offer a whole lot at S.B.B.C... But Im sure I will find something im interested in.

So any objections? I don't know anything about this school. so if you think its a bad idea, please tell me. I just hate the thought of going to hancock for some reason. let me know what you think. Love you all..

Well...im gonna copy everyone and do some shoutouts..here I go

JENN! ~ Thanks for making me laugh. your sooo funny.! I wish we could have gotten mrs. Elder playing the cow bell on video..That was sooo funny! (did you really pee your pants?)

Tanya~ Sorry for not calling you back. Im trying to keep my phone at home because my bill was over $100.. I hope your having fun though, Have you found a job yet?

Mike Shaw~ Thankyou for singing with me on sunday mornings. I dont have much confidence when im singing. so its nice to have you there for support. Thankyou!

Parker~ where are you man! Im pretty sure I need to have a get together at my new home just so we can hang out! sound good?

Farah~ I dont know you...but everyone else loves you..So I do too! I cant wait for you to get in town so we can all get to know you better. Thankyou for being there for mrs. Shaw. He is a very happy man because of you!

I dont know who else reads this blog...so umm. if I didnt put you on here im sorry..its probably because I dont know that you have a blog. love you anyway!

yup

• Take these hands And lift them up
• For I have not the strength to praise You near enough
• See, I have nothing I have nothing without You
• And take my voice and pour it out
• Let it sing the songs of mercy I have found
• For I have nothing I have nothing without You
• And all my soul needs is all Your love To cover me,
• so all the world will see That I have nothing without You
• Take my body and build it up
• May it be broken as an offering of love
• For I have nothing I have nothing without You
• And all my soul needs is all Your love To cover me
• so all the world will see That I have nothing
• That I love You, yeah With all my heart With all my soul
• With all my mind And all the strength
• I can find Take my time here on this earth
• And let it glorify all that You are worth
• For I am nothing I am nothing without You

please pray

Hello. I just wanted to know if you would all pray for my mom right now. She is having a rough time right now in life. I wont get into the details about it, but she is not doing very well. If you could pray for her relationship with the Lord, and for her Job and housing situation that would be great. thankyou!

So im thinking that we need to put together a fun night. I really miss everyone. Maybe go to dinner, or bowling. sounds dumb im sure. I think it would be fun though. What do you think?

Over the mountains through the woods to Tanyas house we go!

Well Hello everyone! (so basically Tanya and Jenn since they are the only people reading this)

Life right is going great. I love my job. Ryley is the cutest child ever! She is wonderful. As you can see up there, that is her.

So Im going to visit Tanya this weekend. It will be short but a lot of fun. Stephanie is going to apply there. I know she will get in and I know she will love it. I cant wait to go and see Tanya. I miss you !!!! Even though you were just here. Yeah, So Stephanie (my sis) is gonna go as well. Im so glad that her and I have become friends. Isnt wierd how siblings can think they dislike someone so much and then end up being best friends? Crazy to me. I never thought that would happen.

So Mike Shaw...What have you been up to? Has your women moved here yet? She is very beautiful and Im happy for you. Just thought you should know.

And Jennifer..How is the Job going? And how is your sister? We should do lunch again. This time I wont be late.!

Tanya!!! What are we gonna do when Steph and I get there?! Plan something amazing so we can make Steph love the place. (I dont think that will be hard though)

Parker! Its been to long. Whats up with your life right now? How is work going for you?


ok. enough of that. I will post more later. love you all!

I love my job

Hey!!! I just wanted to say that I love my job. I love the baby. she is sooo good! she rarely cries and when she does its for like 2 sec. I can wake her up from her nap and she would just smile at me. She is very sweet. I cant wait until she is a little older and crawling around...(even though I will have to chase her everywhere!) and her parents are great people. very very nice. anyway..thats all for now, I will do a good update later. love ya all.

Yay for Jesus

"Praise You In This Storm"
I was sure by now
That You would have reached down,
And wiped our tears away Stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining
As the thunder rollsI barely hear Your whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away
I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember whenI stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry
You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on If I can't find You
As the thunder rolls I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth.

The little grasshopper found a job

Woop Woop. I got a job...Im a nanny for a little baby. She is 6 months old. Im sooo excited to start. Im starting tomorrow so the mom can show me where everything is and what her schedule is. Its mon-thur. 8-5. Im so excited.

Last night was fun . Im glad I went.

ok bye

Question for you all...

Hello everyone!
Tanya is here!! woo hooo.
Im at work right now, trying to apply for a billion jobs. but you have to speak spanish for most of them..all I can say is Taco..yeah...

Is anyone hiring?? do you know someone that is hiring? I need a job so bad. I dont have a degree, so its hard to find a job. But I cant go to school because I cant afford it..ahhhh. ANY SUGGESTIONS ON WHAT I SHOULD DO? (isnt there a really annoying commercial about this?)



QUESTION...PLEASE READ

What do you see me doing with my future? Be honest. Do you see me working with kids? in an office? as a school cook? lol. What do you (my friends) think I would be good at?

your right tani. time for a new post

my font is huge and my writing is from georgia...

So I have to ask you all. Is it better to take a test in the morning or in the afternoon? I have to take my exam again because I failed it...again. so 9am or 2pm? what do you think?

So yeah, Ive been pretty busy lately with moving in to the house..or getting it ready for the move. after scraping wall paper, painting walls, and removing cupboards, things are finally coming together. And yes mike shaw, we went with the red wall and it turned out awesome! Im so excited. things are coming together quite well. The new carpet will be put in the week and then we can move in. hurray!!!

Im so sad that I have to miss Tani once again this weekend. :0( im sorry tanya, I will be at winter camp. (its not as bad as some people missing my wedding to go on vacation...jk)
But I will miss you and I will make plans to come and see you.

Winter camp though....its going to be awesome. I really need to my life back on path..not that I have really walked in the other direction...I think I just get so distracted..with real estate, work, money, and moving...of course there are a billion other things to . But its getting better. God is really working in me. Im excited to see the jr. high students grow this weekend with the Lord. I hope that God can use me to help these kids. Im always afraid that I will tell them the wrong thing or That I wont be able to answer questions..but I guess thats why God wants us to study his word.....

So yeah, I think we are all in need of a party...what do you all think????? just a fun get together, order pizza, watch some movies, play some games?? whats the party for you ask?? well..nothing. I just miss everyone...let me know what you think and I will put it together. love you all. !!

I miss tani..:0(

Thankyou mike shaw for all your help with tanyas party! it was awesome and soooo much fun. It was way better then just going out to lunch ya know? anyway, thankyou for your help!

So I went with tanya to drop her off at college...it was soo awesome! Its sad that I cant go to college and live in a dorm ( now that im married) it just seemed like so much fun. her dorm friends are awesome and very funny. they like tanya a lot ..so thats good. i think im gonna go visit in a couple of weeks. I cant wait!!

So my aunt christine had her baby! little anthony bruno. I havnt been able to see him because i am still a little sick and I dont want to risk it. I think he was almost 9 lbs!! I cant wait to see him..

So im moving I think! Jason and I got a place in orcutt. I think it will be better because the rent is less, its in a better area, and now people can come over because we are not so far away..hurray for friends...anyway, I will let you know how it goes...well this is boring so im gonna go..I dont even know if people read my blog...hmm..oh well!

Luke 1:46

Its amazing how the women who gave birth to Christ was so humble. She knew that people wouldnt believe that she was a virgin, she knew people would look down on her because she wasnt married. But still she says "Praise the Lord" She never made it about her. It was always about God. Thats how we should be when the Lord uses us for his glory. Even if it means people will look at us like me are crazy.
Below is what mary said when she found out she was going to give birth to Jesus


"My soul glorifies the Lord
and my spirit rejoices in God my Savior.
For he has been mindful
of the humble state of his servant.
From now on all generations will call
me blessed
For the mighty one has done great things for me.
holy is his name!
His mercy extends to those who fear him.
From generation to generaton
He has performed mighty deeds with his arm.
He has scattered those who are proud in their inmost thoughts.
He has brought down rulers from their thrones
but has lifted up the humble
he has filled the hungry with good things
but has sent the rich away empty
he has helped his servant israel remembering
to be merciful to Abraham and his descendants forever
even as he said to our fathers."

SCARY!

hey all. So I got a funny phone call from alyssa yesterday....

alyssa: "hey ashley"
me: "hey alyssa"
alyssa: "so here is the plan...We are all gonna dress up, get candy and then have a party at your house and watch scary movies!"
me: "ok"
alyssa: "ok, see you then"

so...its not very funny typed out...but it was very funny on the phone. So i guess everyone is coming over to my house tonight? fun fun fun! im excited!

So my doctor told me that im not going to be able to have kids. I wanted to die. I was so upset you dont even know! I lost sleep over it, I made myself sick over it, I think I cried for like 2 days....Then the nurse calls me and says they made a mistake and everything is fine with me! ahhhhh...Yea, its good news and im soooo happy, but do they even realize how much sadness and pain they put me through!? I think doctors should keep thier mouths shut before they get test results..then drop the bomb after they know what is really wrong and not put people through all of that emotional crap.....anyway, all is good though. im fine..i can have kids..woot woot. love you all. see you later.

Hi

Stephanie got a job with me at Carrows. She is taking over my hostess job. So yeah Thats coool. I have to train her ...So im a server now, You should all come in and sit in my section. it will be fun!

So I went to the Doctor yesterday. I wont get into details...but it was sad...Buts all good. no worries.

well I have to go to work now. I will update more later. byebye!

ashley

maid of honor

So today tanya and I went to pick up whitney ( my maid of honor) at the airport. I was very happy to see her. she hasnt changed a bit..but the bad thing is..I have...or is that a good thing? well..yeah..it was wierd at first...i mean, I havnt seen the girl in six years...I was pretty upset. it wasnt like i expected...but good news. throughout the day we got a lot more used to the fact that we are actually talking in person..and hanging out in person and not just on the phone..so after the car ride, we had a lot of fun. we went to a bbq and then hung out at my moms house. we had great conversation and there was a lot of laughing about the old times. she finally started to get excited about being here...not that she wasnt..it was just wierd..we have a lot of fun plans. the poor thing hasnt been to the beach in like 7 years! so thats a plan. its gonna be great fun. then there is santa barbara, pismo, and a whole bunch of stuff i gotta fit in before the wedding..im excited.




ALL IN ALL...im glad my best friend is here. ive needed her for a long time..so its gonna be good for me. she has already helped me feel better about some things ...and she has only been here for a couple hours! this girl was my only friend when i was younger. and she probably knows more about me then most. im glad she is here to remind me of the person that i really am..thats always a good thing. ;0)

THERES A MOUSE IN MY ROOM!

OMG...A MOUSE JUST RAN OVER MY FOOT!



So im sitting here in my moms house, just minding my own business. When a huge freaking mouse crawls over my foot.. Sick...at first I didnt think anything of it.(because I didnt know it was there) Then it made a noise!!!! ahhhhhhhhh. I freaked. I Jumped up on the little coffee table thing, lost my balance and fell on the floor. meanwhile the stupid little mouse is just staring at me...with its beady little eyes. I was so afraid to move. I just sat there. I will have you know that I won the staring contest because about 20 seconds of no movement what so ever , the sneaky little mouse ran right past me..teasing me in its little mouse way..ug. where is ran off to...no one knows. im sure its hiding under my blanket so it can torment me some more when I go to bed. or maybe its off talking to its friends telling them how i lost my balance and fell of the table. Have a good laugh little mouse. Because its going to be your last. you heard me. be afraid. be very very afraid.

Hello

Ive been thinking...maybe a little to much. You know how people always joke and say "dont think to much, you might hurt yourself" and everyone laughs ..Well this time I think it is true. I think that I have been thinking so much today, that I have actually hurt myself. no. Not physically. But the emotional part isnt doing so well. Dont worry. Its not Jason. He has been so awesome. Everything is great and I am so happy to be with him. I just keep hearing really sad things from people that I really care about. Stuff about Jason and I .. Sometimes I wish I could be like the random girl, sitting in the back of the church, the one that no one really knows anything about. That way no one will care if im getting married, or what my relationship is like with my fiance, or if im ready to get married or not.. BUT...Im not that girl. Everyone has an opinion, and I guess I cant get away from that. But I just want to know, What is so wrong with me that people think im going to be a failure as a wife?? what did I do that was so wrong? Are people still judging me from my past? Do they not realize im not the same person.? what do I need to do to change peoples opinions? ....Are these peoples opinions even worth worring about. ? God knows my heart, he knows my faults, he knows if im going to be a good wife. As long as I do everything to glorify him, and always love him over everything, I believe he will bless me. And my marriage. maybe I should just worry about that instead of everyone else.


I think I should just go to bed. Tomorrow is another day, maybe I will feel better. Someone please call me. give me uplifting words. anything..I dont care. I love you all. goodnight.


PS. PARKER!!!!! I decided to make my post totally awesome by adding you to it! how is everything? things arent as bad with me as they sound. just some thoughts I wanted to post. talk to you later dude!

thursday

Tonight was goodtimes. I though the lesson was pretty good. I thought the atmosphere was good. Did I spell that right? oh well. I had a good time. a part of me is happy that the group has moved back to Jims house. I feel closer to everyone..not that the house is small..but like...we could be more personal there.

Survivor was awesome..im excited .. I LOVE LUPE!
Im glad I finally saw the first episode..to tell you the truth, I dont think I have ever seen a first episode in all of survivor. ! crazy man. let me tell you. I think it is to early to decide on who I want to win, or what team I like better. But i will tell you this..I would love it if stephanie won. i think she is wonderful.

I had fun at the shaw house tonight. to be honest, I finally felt like part of the group, like everyone was my friend.....like I was in on it...I dont know what "it" was..but I felt included. so its all good. I hope that is stays that way to. I really love you all!
Speaking of LOVE....ahhahahahah . I will say no more!

well im to tired to finish this post..gotta go.

BAH

HOLA, Today was a pretty good day. except that my phone was dead all day long and i felt incomplete. But I did have 7 unheard messages which made me feel dandy. (expect they were all from my family! blah)

Good news, my aunt chris is having a boy...and now my aunt Debbie is having a baby!! yayayaya. So im very very happy.

Tonight I went to Jays aunts house. Alot of his family was there, so it was cool. Im glad that I am getting to know them all better. Anyway, they got jay and I a new microwave..woop woop. Its totally awesome and totally needed . we are totally blessed. Everything we need, like a lawn mower, a fridge, a washer and dryer, stuff like that has been provided for us! praise God! He always makes it happen, which is totally awesome. he is totally awesome.

I HAVE A NEW FRIEND!!!!!! Im sooooo happy. I met her at work. her name is mellisa.... We get a long great and she is going through a lot of stuff that I have been through, so I can relate to her a lot. And I can give her good advice to ( or what I think is good advice ;).....) The best thing about her is that she likes me even though I am nerdy and the girl calls me. which is good on my list. I am blessed again because I have been praying and praying that God would send me a good friend, one that will call me and hang out with me, even though I am getting married. And he did. The best part is that she has so much potential to be come to the Lord. I know that sounds dumb....because we should try and bring everyone to the Lord...but she is so almost there. I think that she grew up in a strick baptist home and it pushed her away from religion and God. So yeah, I think Im gonna try and get her to go to church with me and stuff. that will be cool.
The other night she hung out with me at mike shaws house. It was good times...kind of....until mikey told me to get out of his house...ouch! lol oh well, what can ya do......but thanks for letting us hang out for night..that was considerate of you. jk...but really thank you

BIG BROTHER WAS AWESOME!
I dont care if they "waste my time" on an episode that doesnt mean anything. it is still funny! GO JANIE!

I think this is the biggest blog I have written yet..woop woop.

TANYA AND ALYSSA!
Sorry I coulnt go shoe shoppin...I really wanted to go and I was all ready to go..then caitlins mom called and wanted me to come over and get the dress fitted...blah...but you should go with me to find my shoes..So what do they look like? are they cute? do you like pancakes?

wow I just got hyper..

So .....answer me this....when you go to read someones blog and it is really really long, do you feel overwhelmed and just give up on it completely? I would...lol...congrats if you have made it this far!

PARKER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Do you have a blog? I do....ummm

So yeah..tomorrow Im gonna go to the gym with my new friend MEl...and Im gonna get HOT LIKE SHAKIRA!!!!! YIPPY YIPPY!!!
Is shakira hot? I think she sounds like a frog...RIBBIT...RIBBIT

Then on Tuesday Im gonna go to the track with Tracy Starns and get hot like .....ummmm OPRAH!!! Thats right. you heard me..oprah

speaking of oprah, I wrote her a letter telling her that Im a poor white girl, living in a black neighborhood...Do you think she will send me money for my wedding? dude...If I was Oprah, I would give me like, 100,000. $$$$ for my wedding. Just because....LONG LIVE DR. PHIL.

thats to bad

". Some friends are like going to a Quidditch Match. You know its never really going to happen. They are a nice theory, but in reality they’re not going to fly, they’re not going to catch the Snitch, and you’re not going to watch anything other than them suiting up to go onto the pitch. "