So..I can never think of a title for these blogs...oh well.

I am so excited for kickback this weekend. Im a little panicky because I feel like a have a billion things to do..but really...nothing comes to mind. Do you ever get that feeling? I can't wait to see the kids grow in Christ and I can't wait to see what he does in me. I pray that he can use me to be a wonderful example in him. I know there are things I need to change to be that person, But I know he can use me somehow. I've decided today that I really need to get my life on a path moving to him.. It was going in that direction before, but it seems like I kept turning around and walking the other way half the time. if that makes sense... >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> <<<< >>>>>>>>>> <<<<<...haha..thats my example..I want my life to be like this >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> CHRIST. well, At least I know what im talking about...

I believe that we are all in a leadership position. Even if you are not on jr high, high school staff. Even if you are not involved in ministry, you are still a leader. Am I right? The moment you give your life to the Lord is the moment you step into a leadership position. Is it bad that I am just now understanding this? I don't want to be a different person outside of church.. I want my life to reflect him ALL THE TIME. So yeah, those are my thoughts today. Pray for me and for all the staff and kids this weekend. I think great things are going to happen!

a little about me

GRYFFINDOR:
[] You've never done drugs
[x] You have a lot of friends
[x] You get along with everyone
[] You haven't made fun of someone for at least two months
[] You love soccer
[x] You love baseball
[x] You're into writing and art
[] Favorite music genre is pop rock
[x] You believe in "innocent until proven guilty" theory
[x] Abortion is wrong
[ ] The war against Iraq is unneeded
[ ] One of your favorite colors is red or gold
[x] Good grades at school
[x] One of the worst things you can do is lie
[x]You plan on going to college

TOTAL: 12

HUFFLEPUFF:
[x] You're content with mostly everything in your life right now.
[x] You laugh a lot
[] You like to follow trends.
[x] Politics suck.
[x] You love to swim
[] Water polo is awesome
[x] Pink is one of your favorite colors
[] Black is morbid & depressing
[x] Michael Jackson is talented as a musical artist.
[x] You're an optimist.
[] You're completely straight-edge.
[x] You're very emotional
[] Rap, R&B, & hip-hop is your favorite music genre
[] You don't believe in going steady at a young age
[x] You've made fun of at least one person this week.

TOTAL: 7

RAVENCLAW:
[] You're depressed to a certain extent.
[x] You love to read.
[x] You appreciate theatre & arts.
[] Sports suck.
[] You're shy.
[x] Bush is trying his hardest
[x] You've been in love before.
[x] Hate is completely unneeded.
[] Loyalty is the MOST important thing in a relationship
[x] indie is your favorite genre of music.
[x] Every once in awhile you have little anger outbursts.
[] Lying is sometimes okay
[] Blue is one of your favorite colors.
[] Serious is better than funny.
[x] Good grades at school

TOTAL: 7

SLYTHERIN:
[] There's at least one person you hate.
[x] Basketball is a good sport.
[x] Football is amazing
[x] Black is a cool color.
[x] You've lied about something serious.
[x] You're a very deep person.
[x] You have considered suicide.
[x] Very loyal.
[] You like metal.
[] They make school seem more important than it is.
[] You're scared to grow up.
[] You've done drugs in the past month.
[] Anger is one of your primary feelings.
[x] You have trust issues.
[] Guilty until proven innocent.

my new blog..finally

Hello! Just wanted to update on life. Things are going great. Not to much really going on right now. (except for the baby) Im hoping that I will be over the sickness soon. Ive lost 15 lbs in 2 weeks..im pretty sure thats not healthy. Im over it though. Im sure I will gain it back when im not sick.

Im pretty sad about Jim not being our "leader" anymore. He is amazing. I do understand why he had to leave. the guy is soo busy, and I believe God Is calling to greater things! Its so hard to give up on a ministry. Im proud of him for doing what he felt was right. lets keep him and his family in prayer.

MR SHAW!!! I just want you to know that I think you did a great job in leading sunday school! It was very interesting hearing all the different opinions and you did a great job of keeping everyone on topic. Great Job! And thankyou for taking on sunday school. :0)

You know..I really don't have much to write. Life is just pretty kick back right now. I do have a question.

Any grand ideas on a baby nursery? I need some for a girls room and a boys room. I have no clue what to do! let me know.

my baby

Im so excited. I get to see my baby tomorrow!! well all 2 inches of him/her..lol but im excited. I think when we see her/him and hear the heartbeat it will be more real to the both of us. I cant wait. Pray that everything is going well and my baby is healthy! thankyou!

my life..in a slide show

Long time...

So yeah. its been awhile. i decided to quit writing blogs on here because Tanya is the only one that reads them. Maybe Jenn sometimes...so here is the deal. Do I waste my time writing these things or do I find out how many people actually read this gosh darn blog...so I need 5 people to tell me they read my blog...or I will call it quits~!!!!! ahahhahahahah. anyway. let the comments begin.

Back to school.

Hey everyone. Good news...I think.

Today I have an appointment with Lisa from Santa Barbara Business College. I Am going to take some classes there and get my future going. Im sure what I want to do though. To be honest, I don't think im smart enough to do a lot of what they have. And no. Dont feel sorry for me for saying that. Im just being honest! I suck at math....English...History...blah...But this is based off of highschool experiences. I have to remember that highschool was drama and I had a lot of distractions..Boys, mean people, early mornings..and the list goes on and on. The lack of motivation is what killed me.. But I think im different now. More grown up and I can handle things now. So maybe I am smart and I just don't know it yet! I guess we will see. So Im pretty sure I will be taking business classes and accounting stuff. I will find out today what I might go for. They dont really offer a whole lot at S.B.B.C... But Im sure I will find something im interested in.

So any objections? I don't know anything about this school. so if you think its a bad idea, please tell me. I just hate the thought of going to hancock for some reason. let me know what you think. Love you all..

Well...im gonna copy everyone and do some shoutouts..here I go

JENN! ~ Thanks for making me laugh. your sooo funny.! I wish we could have gotten mrs. Elder playing the cow bell on video..That was sooo funny! (did you really pee your pants?)

Tanya~ Sorry for not calling you back. Im trying to keep my phone at home because my bill was over $100.. I hope your having fun though, Have you found a job yet?

Mike Shaw~ Thankyou for singing with me on sunday mornings. I dont have much confidence when im singing. so its nice to have you there for support. Thankyou!

Parker~ where are you man! Im pretty sure I need to have a get together at my new home just so we can hang out! sound good?

Farah~ I dont know you...but everyone else loves you..So I do too! I cant wait for you to get in town so we can all get to know you better. Thankyou for being there for mrs. Shaw. He is a very happy man because of you!

I dont know who else reads this blog...so umm. if I didnt put you on here im sorry..its probably because I dont know that you have a blog. love you anyway!

yup

• Take these hands And lift them up
• For I have not the strength to praise You near enough
• See, I have nothing I have nothing without You
• And take my voice and pour it out
• Let it sing the songs of mercy I have found
• For I have nothing I have nothing without You
• And all my soul needs is all Your love To cover me,
• so all the world will see That I have nothing without You
• Take my body and build it up
• May it be broken as an offering of love
• For I have nothing I have nothing without You
• And all my soul needs is all Your love To cover me
• so all the world will see That I have nothing
• That I love You, yeah With all my heart With all my soul
• With all my mind And all the strength
• I can find Take my time here on this earth
• And let it glorify all that You are worth
• For I am nothing I am nothing without You

please pray

Hello. I just wanted to know if you would all pray for my mom right now. She is having a rough time right now in life. I wont get into the details about it, but she is not doing very well. If you could pray for her relationship with the Lord, and for her Job and housing situation that would be great. thankyou!

So im thinking that we need to put together a fun night. I really miss everyone. Maybe go to dinner, or bowling. sounds dumb im sure. I think it would be fun though. What do you think?

Over the mountains through the woods to Tanyas house we go!

Well Hello everyone! (so basically Tanya and Jenn since they are the only people reading this)

Life right is going great. I love my job. Ryley is the cutest child ever! She is wonderful. As you can see up there, that is her.

So Im going to visit Tanya this weekend. It will be short but a lot of fun. Stephanie is going to apply there. I know she will get in and I know she will love it. I cant wait to go and see Tanya. I miss you !!!! Even though you were just here. Yeah, So Stephanie (my sis) is gonna go as well. Im so glad that her and I have become friends. Isnt wierd how siblings can think they dislike someone so much and then end up being best friends? Crazy to me. I never thought that would happen.

So Mike Shaw...What have you been up to? Has your women moved here yet? She is very beautiful and Im happy for you. Just thought you should know.

And Jennifer..How is the Job going? And how is your sister? We should do lunch again. This time I wont be late.!

Tanya!!! What are we gonna do when Steph and I get there?! Plan something amazing so we can make Steph love the place. (I dont think that will be hard though)

Parker! Its been to long. Whats up with your life right now? How is work going for you?


ok. enough of that. I will post more later. love you all!

I love my job

Hey!!! I just wanted to say that I love my job. I love the baby. she is sooo good! she rarely cries and when she does its for like 2 sec. I can wake her up from her nap and she would just smile at me. She is very sweet. I cant wait until she is a little older and crawling around...(even though I will have to chase her everywhere!) and her parents are great people. very very nice. anyway..thats all for now, I will do a good update later. love ya all.

Yay for Jesus

"Praise You In This Storm"
I was sure by now
That You would have reached down,
And wiped our tears away Stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining
As the thunder rollsI barely hear Your whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away
I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember whenI stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry
You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on If I can't find You
As the thunder rolls I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth.

The little grasshopper found a job

Woop Woop. I got a job...Im a nanny for a little baby. She is 6 months old. Im sooo excited to start. Im starting tomorrow so the mom can show me where everything is and what her schedule is. Its mon-thur. 8-5. Im so excited.

Last night was fun . Im glad I went.

ok bye

Question for you all...

Hello everyone!
Tanya is here!! woo hooo.
Im at work right now, trying to apply for a billion jobs. but you have to speak spanish for most of them..all I can say is Taco..yeah...

Is anyone hiring?? do you know someone that is hiring? I need a job so bad. I dont have a degree, so its hard to find a job. But I cant go to school because I cant afford it..ahhhh. ANY SUGGESTIONS ON WHAT I SHOULD DO? (isnt there a really annoying commercial about this?)



QUESTION...PLEASE READ

What do you see me doing with my future? Be honest. Do you see me working with kids? in an office? as a school cook? lol. What do you (my friends) think I would be good at?

your right tani. time for a new post

my font is huge and my writing is from georgia...

So I have to ask you all. Is it better to take a test in the morning or in the afternoon? I have to take my exam again because I failed it...again. so 9am or 2pm? what do you think?

So yeah, Ive been pretty busy lately with moving in to the house..or getting it ready for the move. after scraping wall paper, painting walls, and removing cupboards, things are finally coming together. And yes mike shaw, we went with the red wall and it turned out awesome! Im so excited. things are coming together quite well. The new carpet will be put in the week and then we can move in. hurray!!!

Im so sad that I have to miss Tani once again this weekend. :0( im sorry tanya, I will be at winter camp. (its not as bad as some people missing my wedding to go on vacation...jk)
But I will miss you and I will make plans to come and see you.

Winter camp though....its going to be awesome. I really need to my life back on path..not that I have really walked in the other direction...I think I just get so distracted..with real estate, work, money, and moving...of course there are a billion other things to . But its getting better. God is really working in me. Im excited to see the jr. high students grow this weekend with the Lord. I hope that God can use me to help these kids. Im always afraid that I will tell them the wrong thing or That I wont be able to answer questions..but I guess thats why God wants us to study his word.....

So yeah, I think we are all in need of a party...what do you all think????? just a fun get together, order pizza, watch some movies, play some games?? whats the party for you ask?? well..nothing. I just miss everyone...let me know what you think and I will put it together. love you all. !!

I miss tani..:0(

Thankyou mike shaw for all your help with tanyas party! it was awesome and soooo much fun. It was way better then just going out to lunch ya know? anyway, thankyou for your help!

So I went with tanya to drop her off at college...it was soo awesome! Its sad that I cant go to college and live in a dorm ( now that im married) it just seemed like so much fun. her dorm friends are awesome and very funny. they like tanya a lot ..so thats good. i think im gonna go visit in a couple of weeks. I cant wait!!

So my aunt christine had her baby! little anthony bruno. I havnt been able to see him because i am still a little sick and I dont want to risk it. I think he was almost 9 lbs!! I cant wait to see him..

So im moving I think! Jason and I got a place in orcutt. I think it will be better because the rent is less, its in a better area, and now people can come over because we are not so far away..hurray for friends...anyway, I will let you know how it goes...well this is boring so im gonna go..I dont even know if people read my blog...hmm..oh well!

Luke 1:46

Its amazing how the women who gave birth to Christ was so humble. She knew that people wouldnt believe that she was a virgin, she knew people would look down on her because she wasnt married. But still she says "Praise the Lord" She never made it about her. It was always about God. Thats how we should be when the Lord uses us for his glory. Even if it means people will look at us like me are crazy.
Below is what mary said when she found out she was going to give birth to Jesus


"My soul glorifies the Lord
and my spirit rejoices in God my Savior.
For he has been mindful
of the humble state of his servant.
From now on all generations will call
me blessed
For the mighty one has done great things for me.
holy is his name!
His mercy extends to those who fear him.
From generation to generaton
He has performed mighty deeds with his arm.
He has scattered those who are proud in their inmost thoughts.
He has brought down rulers from their thrones
but has lifted up the humble
he has filled the hungry with good things
but has sent the rich away empty
he has helped his servant israel remembering
to be merciful to Abraham and his descendants forever
even as he said to our fathers."

SCARY!

hey all. So I got a funny phone call from alyssa yesterday....

alyssa: "hey ashley"
me: "hey alyssa"
alyssa: "so here is the plan...We are all gonna dress up, get candy and then have a party at your house and watch scary movies!"
me: "ok"
alyssa: "ok, see you then"

so...its not very funny typed out...but it was very funny on the phone. So i guess everyone is coming over to my house tonight? fun fun fun! im excited!

So my doctor told me that im not going to be able to have kids. I wanted to die. I was so upset you dont even know! I lost sleep over it, I made myself sick over it, I think I cried for like 2 days....Then the nurse calls me and says they made a mistake and everything is fine with me! ahhhhh...Yea, its good news and im soooo happy, but do they even realize how much sadness and pain they put me through!? I think doctors should keep thier mouths shut before they get test results..then drop the bomb after they know what is really wrong and not put people through all of that emotional crap.....anyway, all is good though. im fine..i can have kids..woot woot. love you all. see you later.

Hi

Stephanie got a job with me at Carrows. She is taking over my hostess job. So yeah Thats coool. I have to train her ...So im a server now, You should all come in and sit in my section. it will be fun!

So I went to the Doctor yesterday. I wont get into details...but it was sad...Buts all good. no worries.

well I have to go to work now. I will update more later. byebye!

ashley

maid of honor

So today tanya and I went to pick up whitney ( my maid of honor) at the airport. I was very happy to see her. she hasnt changed a bit..but the bad thing is..I have...or is that a good thing? well..yeah..it was wierd at first...i mean, I havnt seen the girl in six years...I was pretty upset. it wasnt like i expected...but good news. throughout the day we got a lot more used to the fact that we are actually talking in person..and hanging out in person and not just on the phone..so after the car ride, we had a lot of fun. we went to a bbq and then hung out at my moms house. we had great conversation and there was a lot of laughing about the old times. she finally started to get excited about being here...not that she wasnt..it was just wierd..we have a lot of fun plans. the poor thing hasnt been to the beach in like 7 years! so thats a plan. its gonna be great fun. then there is santa barbara, pismo, and a whole bunch of stuff i gotta fit in before the wedding..im excited.




ALL IN ALL...im glad my best friend is here. ive needed her for a long time..so its gonna be good for me. she has already helped me feel better about some things ...and she has only been here for a couple hours! this girl was my only friend when i was younger. and she probably knows more about me then most. im glad she is here to remind me of the person that i really am..thats always a good thing. ;0)