hmmm..should I?

I wonder if should post feelings on a blog. oh well im going to anyway.


So I call people...And the conversations usually go like this

ME: Hey whats up?
other person: nothing really..
ME: cool what are your plans tonight? is everyone haning out?
other person: I dont know yet, But i will call you.

blah blah blah....
Do I ever get a phone call? noooooooooooo. Do my friends hang out that night? yes. Do people have parties and go to parties and not tell me..? yes.

So I wonder, is this how it is when someone is getting married? everyone forgets about them? or maybe everyone just wants the single people to hang out? whats the deal? im soooo tired of sitting at home and wondering what everyone is doing. and not getting invited to things. Yes I have a life...and right now that consists of my job, God, and jason...notice how I dont have friends on that list, thats because no one calls me. because they asume that i dont want to because my world revolves around jason. what if that is wrong? what if I want to be in a bible study? or go to a party, or just hang out.? .......ahhhhhh.

I love you all..i really do. and im not trying to make everyone feel bad. I promise..I just want you to know that I do want to be involved with these things, I want friends, I want people to call me and just see how everything is going. and if you are thinking "why doesnt she ever call us?" its because im tired of hearing "I will call you when i find out what everyone is doing tonight" and then not getting a call. thats all..im done and i feel better. just some silly dramatic stuff thats been on my mind.

I SAW TANI IN HER CAR

So yeah, Here is my blog...


I started this new nanny job as some of you know. I love it!!! Although I am pretty much a full time mother. It is pretty hard. I have never been so tired with a job in my life!! My day starts off at like 8 am. I make them breakfast, do the dishes when they are done and clean up the mess. Get them in the bath, then dressed. Have them watch a movie or play, Clean....make lunch, clean.....intertain them with the park or the thrift store. They love the dollar store..then I clean after that make dinner...clean ....its hard work!! but they are good kids and I love them already. My car is so cute, I have two car seats in the back covered with crackers. lol its pretty funny.

So what else is new in my life? nothing really exciting except for my new blonde hair. yup, Im going back blonde. I cant do it...I cant get married with brown hair, its just not me...well, this is about the most boring blog Ive ever written in my life..