What?

"he exposed the sophisticated intellectual opposition to objective being and objective value for the naked folly that it was. "

Ummm. what? seriously guys. If you only had to read that sentence once and had full understanding of it then you are a freaking genius. Or maybe I should just go back to school. Who knows. Listen John Piper. If for some odd reason you decide to go on the Internet and read Ashley Hyltons Blog and see this.... Do you think you could maybe lay of the thesaurus?

I really want to read this book that the church gave us. Its called Don't Waste your life. I started reading it and it has great stories and outlook on things. But Let me tell you. I have never googled so many words in my life! You know the sentence above? that is how 90% of the book is. The other 10% that I can understand is great. But it would be wonderful if I could understand the rest of it. I know that writing should be creative, but if people cant understand it because it is to complex, then whats the point. Im not questioning your integrity Mr. Piper. Because the truth is, I might be the only person that cant understand what the heck you are talking about. And for my blogger friends. If you know what he is talking about. Don't tell me. just make me feel better and tell me you are just as confused as I am.

On that note. I will continue to read this book ..and Try to understand it to the best of my ability. but I'm not promising anything.

"existentialism was the air we breathed"

I have to admit. Existentialism was probably the first word I googled as I read this book. I learned that this meant "existence precedes essence." first you exist and then , by existing you create your own purpose, or meaning to life as opposed to deities or authorities creating it for you. I guess I learn something new everyday right?

anyway, he talked about Bob Dylans song Blowin in the Wind. (which is the first song Mrs. Elder taught me on guitar) "how many times must a man look up before he can see the sky?" He said "you may look up ten thousand times and say you don't see it. But that has absolutely no effect on its objective existence. It is there. And one day you will see it."

when I read this I instantly thought of Philippians 2:9-11.
"God has given him a name which is above every name – that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, of things in heaven, and things in earth, and things under the earth; and that every tongue should confess that Jesus Christ is Lord"


I know that for most of you that is a common verse. To be honest I have heard it a millions times over and I have to admit that It never really hit me until now. I seriously cannot wait for that day. Have you ever pictured what it will be like? (alright. stop singing I can only imagine!) Imagine everyone, and I mean everyone, on their knees worshiping God at the same time. I think of Hume Lake, and how moved I am to see everyone with hands in the air worshiping God together. . Its a wonderful feeling to be surrounded by others that Love God like that . Take that feeling and multiply it by...I don't know, a million? I don't even think that is enough. I just know its going to be amazing and it will never go away. Not when you have an eternity in Heaven.

So, I'm sorry if that was a boring blog. I feel like a new christian that is hearing these amazing things for the first time. A part of me is sad about that, but happy that im finally getting somewhere. Im still learning, I guess we should never really stop learning right?

between you and God.

BETWEEN YOU AND GOD
People are often unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered. Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives. Be kind anyway.
If you are successful you will win some false friends and true enemies. Succeed anyway.
If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you. Be honest and frank anyway.
What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight. Build anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous. Be happy anyway.
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow. Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough. Give the world the best you’ve got anyway.
You see, in the end, it is between you and God; it was never between you and them anyway.
–Mother Teresa

This is seriously amazing. I want to know your thoughts on this. I think She is right. It is between myself and God. And he knows my true motives, he knows the truth about everything and in the end it only matters what God thinks. He knows the truth, so therefor im not going to worry about it anymore. Being worried and holding back will only push me away from God. And having a relationship with him means more to me then anything. Even if that means I have to lose some..

Now on to my question that has nothing to really do about that.

When I pray for something over and over and over again does that mean I lack faith? Im serious. I really dont know the answer. Having Faith means "having complete confidence in a person or plan." So when I continually pray for certain things does that mean I dont have faith that God will help me with it? I feel like I do, but why do I pray the same thing over and over? If you have an answer please let me know.

Matthew 6:7-8 says:
But when you pray, do not use vain repetitions as the heathens do. For they think that they will be heard for their many words. Therefore do not be like them. For your Father knows the things you have need of before you ask Him.

I came across this and it confused me. So im just interested in what you guys think. I could be taking this whole verse the wrong way. sometimes I fail to see the real meaning in what im reading. I think we all do that though sometimes. That's why I think Fellowship is so important for us. The past week I have been talking to my friend about some things that are going on and its crazy how they can bust out a verse, that before they explained it to me, had no relevance to my situation. I love when God reveals things to people like that. Its like singing the same song at church every sunday and it really doesn't mean anything to you. But then the next Sunday you sing it and it hits you more then ever and all of the sudden it has meaning. That's how the bible has been for me lately. I really need to read my bible more. I lack so badly in that department. But its getting better. So you guys can pray for me k. That I can have a better understanding of Gods word and that I keep up the bible reading.

ps. My Easter update will be up in a few days! woo hoo. ;0)

Enough is enough

To all my friends who have one..Update your stinkin blog. seriously. you guys are lagging. love ya though!

pictures!

Hey everyone!! We got Tylers pictures done last week and they turned out great! you might have seen some from Myspace already. Anyway, Bethany Armsheimer took them with the help of her sister melany Klink. I hope I spelled those names right! Anyway, If you want bethanys information so she can do your pictures just let me know. she is amazing you guys!! Well, here are some of my favorites. enjoy!

oh nalgene bottle. how I love you

I think my blog was to long last time and it scared people away. So this one shall be shorter..maybe.

Tyler got his 4 months shots yesterday. Poor guy. His little legs got red and sore and he pretty much screamed for the rest of the day. I felt so bad. There was nothing I could do about it except give him some baby meds and hope it helped. He is much better today. Thank God. I don't think I could handle that for another day.

We tied our softball game yesterday. The girls did great on hitting and pretty good of fielding. The other team tied with us after our catcher and picture decided to not pay attention and help a girl that got hit with the ball. while they were trying to help this girl (who wasn't even hurt) the other team had 2 runners on the bases that ran to home with out us even trying to get them out. Did that make sense? A little confusing. All in all. The girls and the coaches had a great time. And that's all that matters. They are awesome girls. I'm so happy to be their coach.

I went to the gym last night after the game. It was cool, except I was by myself and that kind of sucked. I usually have my awesome cousin Tan with me or my sisters. It was fine though because I was able to think about a lot of things without distraction. Have you ever tried praying while on the treadmill? It kept me going. I think I was paying so much attention to praying and thinking about life in general, that I doubled my usual time. That was pretty cool. so yeah, last night was good. The only thing that bugs me is that no matter how much I push myself Im never sore the next day.. So maybe im not pushing myself hard enough? Its annoying. As far as weight loss goes, I haven't lost much since the last time I weighed. But im also building a bit of muscle. I have lost another inch though, and that's pretty exciting. Does anyone on here go to Golds?

As for my life in general, I couldn't be happier. I have Jesus. Who is just amazing. He will never leave me, or let me down. And I love that. I have my awesome husband Jason who loves and provides for this family like you wouldn't believe. I married my best friend. Isn't that the way it should be :0) And I have my baby Tyler. He can make me smile in the worst of times. I love him. I cant believe that he has only been here for 4 months. I feel like I have loved him since the day I was born. And of course, My family and friends. I love you too. That's a lot of love right there. And of course, I end this blog with some pictures. I hope it wasn't to long!