I know its long....

I know this is really long. But please read it if you can. It means a lot for me, and I could really use the support..thank you!

I can finally post that I am pregnant. yay! I should wait longer to tell people because things are not going so well. I have low progesterone levels. And progesterone is the hormone that keeps the baby safe and keeps women from miscarrying. I have starting taking some progesterone pills to bring up my levels and I pray that it works. This has been a very scary time for Jason and I. I have already had a trip to the hospital thinking I was losing the baby. I prayed to hard that God would prove the Dr.s wrong. and he has so far. So I guess I will start from the beginning.

Found out I was pregnant and went to the Dr. When they did an ultrasound they couldn't see anything and I was freaked out. They also found a cyst on my ovaries the size of an Orange! yikes. So hopefully that will go away or else I have to have it removed. Moving on, They did blood work and told me my hormone levels are low. A lot of the signs pointed to the pregnancy being ectopic. (meaning the baby would be in my fallopian tubes..bad bad ) So one night I started bleeding and cramping. It was the worst feeling ever. thinking I was losing another baby. So I called the dr and he said I was having a miscarriage. So I went in and they checked and everything was fine. They even saw a sack in my uterus. Meaning it was not ectopic. yay.. So I go home that night and am sick the entire night...nice huh. just thought you should know. Turned out I had the worst stomach flu ever! blah. so I went back to the Dr. the next day and they checked again. my hormone levels kept dropping. so they put me on the meds to raise my levels. The next week I went back and they saw a baby in the sack but no heart beat. So of course Im freaking out even more. I went back in about a week later and saw a heartbeat! The Dr was very surprised and happy to see the heart beat and said everything is progressing the way it should be. praise God! Just shows how much prayer helps. So this pregnancy is pretty much a waiting game. I have an appointment on Monday to measure the baby. Im just praying that there is still a heartbeat and everything is fine. Pray for me.

March 25 is Ava's due date. I prayed that God would send Jason and I some hope and comfort this month. And he sent us another baby. Not that this one is taking her place, but it did give us hope and comfort. Just knowing that he is here for us and hears our prayers. Sunday is going to be a hard day for us, but I know we will be ok. A song that has really helped Jason and I is Jeremy camp, Walk by Faith. I have listened to this song daily. Here is the trippy part. Jasons mom got jason and I tickets to see him in concert..on Sunday..the one day we really need it. YAY! I really believe thats a God thing. I asked for comfort on that day and he sent it. Sorry this is so long everyone. Are you even reading this? hehe. thanks if you are.

So here are the lyrics





Will I believe you when you say, Your hand will guide my every way
Will I receive the words You say, Every moment of every day
Well I will walk by faith Even when I cannot see
because this broken road Prepares Your will for me

Help me to RID my endless fears
You've been so faithful for all my years
With the one breath You make me new
Your grace covers all I do

well i will walk by faith even when i cannot see
because this broken road prepares your will for me
Well I'm broken- but I still see Your face
Well You've spoken- pouring Your words of grace
Well I will walk by faith Even when I cannot see
Well because this broken road Prepares Your will for me

So please keep us in your prayers. Really though, pray pray pray. Dont say you will just to be nice..;0) really do it. It would mean so much to us. I will keep ya all updated.
ashley